What am i to do!

Through years of salt and pepper, people tell me i should know what's wrong and right.
Yes, i replied. I know.
I was being an idiot to not know what is meant to be said and what's not.

After years of suffering from salt and pepper, i seriously learnt.
What is meant to be said and what's not.
Because it was such a difficult path, i chose to not say a single thing about a single shit i know.
Unless it's my own matter.

And now, troubles and problems come to me again. like before.
In the end, you know what?!
They say, alac, you should have spoken what you know. You all along keep quiet down there, you can't blame people for misunderstanding you.
Great.
I'm not a person good with words. Either i speak and people tend to add colours to them, OR i keep quiet and get misunderstood by people.
They don't even give me a chance to clarify myself!

Ar bo tell me what to do la!

Lucky me, i forgot i got a few friends to side me, to protect me, regardless i am wrong or right.
They just do it, because it's me. I think. Ha.

Been such a long time since i remembered someone spoke this to me, " alac, i won't let anyone touch you. If she tries to find trouble with you, let me know. i'll give her one good time."
And that is regardless on the gorunds whether i am in the wrong or right. They just care and stand in front of me to make sure i didn't lose a hair. even if the opponent is someone they know as well. Because they believe. and i nv let them down. One phone call, one sms, 5mins and here they are standing right here with me.

I was so touched i think i had a tear.

They were the people who i had lost touch with and long forgotten.
Long forgotten that they were the ones to protect me and stayed by me.

I am sorry. You guys are still there. It's me. my fault. to have forgotten all these while.

Thank you.